Sacrificing for the future

I'm almost done with one semester. Law school? I don't love you. But, I don't hate you. I love not working and having plenty of time to lay around. But, sometimes I fell useless. What is my life's purpose? Especially here. I have always felt like my purpose has been clear, but here it does not feel like that. Sometimes I think about leaving. Especially after a night spent sitting in the lounge because my roommate has her boyfriend over. It really makes me lose perspective. I try to think about why I came and remember that this is for a purpose. And, I am thankful that I have had the opportunity to move away from home and try my hand at starting over again. I have made some good friends. I have gotten to learn new things. But, I really thought that I would love it here. And I don't. I recently went home to Nebraska and my dad asked me if I was happy. All I did was cry in response. But, is it important for me to be happy all the time? I think I can sacrifice for my future. It will be worth it in the end, right?

For Jessie

On her birthday, after some hard partying. She looks like she is going to kill me, normally she is smiling. I was not afraid of her. Her bf in the background, I don't know what he was doing. Check out her blog. She posts much more often than I do.

Life as a student

Here are some things that I have learned about myself since I returned to school:
1. I am only interested in doing the minimum amount of work I need to do to get by, and I get annoyed when I don't know what that is.
2. I sometimes imitate accents, which is gross considering the accent I am imitating is the Long Island one.
3. I have to sleep A LOT.
4. I don't know if I want to be a lawyer.
5. I would rather talk about ideas than learn facts.
6. I miss home.
7. It's not that interesting to stay awake all class (I used to sleep through class a lot in undergrad).
8. Using the internet during class is AMAZING. Chatting, reading gossip, blogs, shopping...all while learning about mental states.
9. I miss working.
10. I miss having fun places to study, like coffee houses or the pj lounge.
Here are some pictures:
Tea and law school sympathy
Enjoying the Mountain Goats
Pretty NYC

New York, New York

I've been in New York for a week now...it seems so much longer! I took my first trip to the city on Saturday. Hence, the picture of Times Square. It felt so good to get into the city and be excited about being here. My week prior had consisted of lectures and homework for law school orientation and seeing the sights of Hempstead (not the most beautiful or exciting city). A new friend and I took the train in and walked all over until we were hot and sweaty. We ate in Little Italy for lunch and Chinatown for supper. We walked over the Brooklyn Bridge and I kept playing that song from the old show "Brooklyn Bridge" in my head. Anyone else watch that? We also went up 6 flights of stairs in Chinatown to look at some knockoff purses. It was weird. Central Park is huge and was full of runners and dogs out enjoying the day. I heart NYC.

the start of good-byes

I am saying good-bye to my car when I move on Sunday. My parents and I are going to donate it. It has been mine since I was 16 and before that was my grandpa's. It has survived 8 years of my crazy driving in Lincoln, the mountains, on road trips. It has transported friends, family, clients, their babies. It will be sad to let it go...

Updates

Hey everyone...I wanted to give an update on my life for those of you who still check my blog. I'm moving to Long Island on August 18th to go to law school at Hofstra. While there I am going to blog my experiences and pictures of what I am seeing and doing. My connection to technology should be better than it was in France (let's hope anyways). I hope not to disappoint.